Okay, tantrum aside.
Thought I'd just drop by to let those who care know that I don't hate everything and everyone C:
I was a little fed up with everything in general while writing the last journal. Just a lot of stuff happening in real life that brought me down. That somehow made going online less enjoyable as well.
I just needed to get away from the 'everyday routine', which meant my online activity as well. Even drawing.
I'm not back as of yet, though.
But I couldn't avoid the kind concern and well wishing from most of you guys.
Thank you. It motivates me to want to get back here soon.
I've been doing a lot of thinking these last couple of days concerning my online activity. Because I've realized during this little break: it's nice not living on the internet all the time.
There will be some changes concerning how I approach a lot of things online.
Most of that concern falls on White Space.
I'm still thinking it all through, so I'll reveal more at a later date. But I can say that as far as updating and the story for the comic is concerned, nothing will change.
I have realized however, it's mine.
It's like I baked this cake and gave some people a piece to enjoy. Then more people came around and took a piece without me having to give it to them, which is great! That means everyone gets cake and is happy!
I just forgot to keep a piece of cake for myself.
Point is: When I started this, I did it for myself, by myself.
Later, the fans became a great motivation and I started kinda doing it for them. Doing things with my characters to make others happy and in turn, give me a fleeting sense of accomplishment. Putting almost all my time into these ventures.
That's when I remembered you can't rely on others to make you happy.
It's hard to stay true to yourself when you're trying to satisfy everyone. You should do what you like, how you like it and then others will follow. Not work for others and hope they will give you that 'good job' you were hoping for.
WS isn't for the people, by me. It's by me, for the people.
I mean this for all my art in general, it's just WS is the biggest piece out of all of them, which is the simplest to refer to.
This all might sound very selfish of me, I realize that. But having come to this conclusion, I'm motivated again. Motivated to create.
Sorry, this journal was supposed to be short. >w<
There's still a bunch of things I have to think about and do here, as well as real life.
I'll get into the nitty-gritty of it all later, for those of you who would like to know what exactly happened.
Right now I'm learning to take care of the things I love and love to do. And remembering that taking things seriously is okay, but taking it too
seriously is where the problems start to stem from.
Almost 24 and I'm still learning
I cleaned my bookshelf yesterday. What a sense of accomplishment!
I also played a game last night. A. Game. C: (Even though it was 'Outlast' and I shat myself I few times TwT )
I think I'll watch some Breaking Bad tonight. Then draw something pretty~
See ya later, dudes.